Saturday, July 31, 2010

mahu kamu....(part 4)

Azwan menghempaskan tubuhnya pada ribaan tilam yang terhampar. Mengurut-urut kepalanya yang berdenyut, pedih dan memerit. Sakit kepalanya itu semakin lama semakin kuat menyerang. Letih dan tak tahan dengan kesakitan yang makin mengila, dia mengambil keputusan untuk pulang lebih awal ke rumah. Memandu dalam keadaan tidak betul-betul fokus, dengan gangguan sakit kepala yang memberat, benar-benar menyesakkan dan menyeksakan. Perlahan-lahan dan kadang-kadang sedikit tekanan di berikan pada urat-urat di bahagian dahi dan ubun kepalanya. Nafas di tarik perlahan-lahan...cuba untuk lebih releks dan tenang. Banyak perkara yang menyesakkan otaknya dan fikirannya. hatinya tak tenang, jiwanya rawan..semuanya serba tidak kena. Semuanya gara-gara panggilan telefon lebih 3 minggu yang lalu. Puas dia berfikir..puas dia mencari kepastian, namun, jawapannya hampa!. Tiada sebarang tanda dan tiada sebarang jawapan. ARggghhhh....!!

Azwan lemas dan cemas. Sudah penat mencari dan mencari...namun pencarian itu nyata tidak membuahkan hasil. Mahu ke lubuk mana lagi die menyelam mencari jawapan...mahu ke gunung mana lagi untuk dia daki bagi mencari kepastian. Dimana?....

bila membicarakan apa dan kenapa..semua persoalan hanya akan tinggal menjadi persoalan. Pertanyaan akan tergantung tanpa jawapan....bungkam!.

"Amy......."aduhai...terlalu berat beban rindu yang Amira tinggalkan..terlalu azab rasa kasih sayang itu tumbuh..bercambah dan mekar dalam dirinya. Dialah si pekebun cinta..membajak sekeping hati dengan batas-batas rasa sebuah cinta..menyemai benih-benih cinta..dengan siraman kasih sayang dan sungkupan keikhlasan...dialah yang menjaga dan memelihara nilai cinta itu untuk terus subur dan mewangi. Dia pemilik cinta itu......dia pemilik rasa kasih sayang itu...

Azwan menghela nafas panjang...kepalanya masih keras, berdegil dan rasa pening yang tidak jua surut. Dia sakit...seluruh jiwanya sakit....

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Amira memakirkan keretanya betul-betul di hadapan kedai Makan Ikan Singgang yang terletak di Sri Rampai. Jam menunjukkan pukul 1.15 tengahari. Masih ada 15 minit sebelum janji pertemuan dia dan juga Faizal. Dengan mengenakan jubah labuh berwarna hijau gelap dan selendang bercorak abstrak dari pilihan warna yang bersesuaian, padanan fesyen gadis itu nyata mengindahkan lagi ayunan langkah sopannya. Senyuman terukir indah di bibir tanpa lipstik gadis berbadan sederhana itu. Faizal......

"Assalammualaikum......"Amira menegur sesusuk tubuh yang sedang asyik membaca menu di hadapannya.

"Waalaikummusalam......Mira!"riak gembira jelas terpamer di wajah dan suara pemuda berkaca mata dan bercermin mata itu. Senyuman indah terukir, mesra.

"Wah ejal....khusyuk tengok menu..sampai x sedar orang kiri kanan..hehehe"Amira melabuhkan punggungnya di hadapan Faizal, sepupunya yang paling dia rapat, dari kecil sehingga masing-masing dewasa dan punya kehidupan sendiri.

"Hehehehe....awal Mira sampai....."

"Ejal lagi awal..siap dah nak order makan pun..x menyempat-nyempat tunggu Mira...tak baik tau..."

"Bukan lama mana pun. Baru jer sampai...keluar awal tadi, kebetulan hari ni, kat opis x sibuk mana..lagipun, ada showroom dekat dengan Wangsawalk..lepas tengok showroom, terus ke sini. Mira sihat..?Dah lama kita tak jumpa kan...namanya duk KL...jumpa pun susah..."Faizal membetulkan duduknya. Matanya tepat memandang gadis manis dihadapannya. Semakin dewasa, semakin cantik sepupunya itu. Manis dan ayu.

"Cantik Mira sekarang...hehehehehe...."Amira hanya tersipu-sipu malu, segan di puji.

"Manalah cantiknya..masih macam yang Ejal kenal dulu...hehehehe....Eh, macamana dengan Sarah...dia sihat...dah lama Mira tak jumpa dia..."

"Sarah?...emm....dia sihat, macam biasa. Dia busy dengan kerja-kerja dia Mira....."ada nada keluhan dan sedikit kecewa pada penyataan Faizal. Amira hanya diam. Tidak mahu bertanya lanjut. Bukan dia tidak kenal dengan Sarah, isteri sepupunya itu. Kenal, tapi dia tidak mahu banyak bertanya, sebab kata hatinya menyatakan ada yang tidak indah sedang berlaku. Indah?..

"Ejal sebenarnya.....sedang kecewa Mira..kecewa dengan apa yang berlaku semenjak dua tiga menjak ni. Ejal kecewa dengan Sarah...kecewa dengan diri Ejal sendiri...."sedikit pendahuluan Faizal, Amira sudah dapat mengagak, maksud pertemuan mereka hari ini. Luahan dan perkongsian perasaan. Amira hanya diam. Memberikan ruang selesa untuk Faizal terus bercerita.

"Kali ini..Ejal...Ejal....."tersekat-sekat bicara sepupunya itu. Duduknya resah...serba tidak kena. Riak mukanya keruh dan jelas serabut. Cara Faizal merenungnya...meluahkan kata, semuanya bagai serba tak kena, gelisah dan resah. Perbualan mereka terhenti, apabila pelayan datang mengambil pesanan.

"Ejal...."belum sempat dihabiskan kata-katanya, deringan telepon milik Faizal berdering nyaring. Faizal hanya memandang sepi, tidak dijawab. Dia hanya mengeluh. Diam. Sekali lagi teleponnya menjerit nyaring, masih dibiarkan, 1,2,3 kali, diam tak dijawab.

"Kenapa tak dijawab?"

"Sarah."Ringkas jawapan Faizal. Dia mencapai teleponnya yang masih berdering entah untuk kali ke berapa. Di cabut bateri teleponnya. Diam. Amira sedikit terkesima dengan tindakan spontan sepupunya itu.

"Ejal bosan Mira..bosan dengan sikap Sarah yang tak pernah nak matang!"sedikit tinggi suara Faizal. Mendengus. Suasana bungkam, pelayan menghantar pesanan mereka. Tenggiri singgang, Udang petai, Kangkung Belacan dan juga Ulam budu.

"Ejal...Ejal..tak pernah rasa terhina macam ni....Ejal benar-benar kecewa!..."sedikit menjerit pemuda itu berkata. Ada airmata yang bergenang, bertakung di dua mata sepupunya yang sedikit sepet itu. Wajah Faizal yang berkulit cerah dan putih itu, sedikit memerah. Marah dan sayu.

"Sarah benar-benar dah mencabar Ejal!!"Amira masih diam, dibiarkan Faizal menyatakan semuanya. Dia sendiri pasti boleh mengagak, semua masalah sepupunya itu, pastinya berpunca dari Sarah. Bukan hanya kali ini sahaja sepupunya itu dan dirinya berkongsi suka dan duka, rahsia dan cerita. Malah dari kecil mereka bersama dalam menyimpan semua kisah-kisah dan kejadian yang terjadi di antara mereka berdua. Semuanya tersimpan rapi dan tetap menjadi rahsia mereka berdua. Malah, Amira sendiri, sudah terlalu jelas dengan sikap cemburu buta Sarah. Satu-satunya sikap Sarah yang paling tidak disukainya. Cemburu tidak bertempat. Amira pasti, kali ini juga, masalahnya adalah sama, Sarah dan cemburunya.

"Ejal tak pernah terniat atau berniat untuk menduakan Sarah. Berlaku curang!..tak pernah terlintas pun dalam hati Ejal. Mira pun tahukan.....sedalam mana cinta dan kasih sayang Ejal pada Sarah...."ada sendu yang melirik. Amira hanya mengangguk. Baginya sendiri, sebagai seorang perempuan, Sarah benar-benar beruntung memiliki seorang suami yang sangat ikhlas menyayanginya..menyintainya, dari dulu hingga sekarang. Biarpun di tuduh macam-macam, Faizal masih tetap setia disisi, mengasihi dan menyintai. Apa lagi yang Sarah mahukan?. Dia sendiri pelik.

"Ejal....Ejal dah tak boleh nak teruskan........Ejal kecewa Mira....sangat!" terpempam Amira mendengar penyataan yang tak pernah terlintas sedikitpun di akal fikirannya. Apakah maksud sepupunya itu..berpisah?..dia mahu berpisah dengan Sarah?.

"Ejal....Ejal difitnah oleh isteri sendiri Mira!..Ejal malu......benar-benar kecewa!Malu!"

"Apa yang terjadi sebenarnya...?apa yang Sarah dah buat?Ejal....."Tak tahan melihat airmata lelaki yang gugur di hadapanya itu, Amira sudah tidak senang duduk. Belas dan simpati. Dia sangat-sangat sayangkan sepupunya itu, bagai darah daging dan adik beradik sendiri.

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(Nakal x...?)...hehehehehehe

Sunday, July 18, 2010

a short journey.....



잠 시만 Goodbye (A Short Journey) Lyrics by Super Junior feat. Kangin

Neol saranghaetdeon ee nae mami,
neol barabwatdeon nae du nuni
ajikdo yeogie...

Oh baby say goodbye oh jamsiman goodbye
annyeongiran mareun jamsi jeobeodulke
Jeo muneul yeolgoseo han georeum naemilmyeon
kko kkeuteuro jeonhaejineun neoui sumgyeol

Chagaun geu baram soge ddaddeuthan neoui son-gili handongan nama itneungeol
Ontong geudae heunjeoki nunmuli dwe-eo nae du bbyam wi-e meomuneun geol
Jamsi dongan yeohaengeul ddeona gaseum apeun sangchyeo dakka naegoseo
sigan heulleo geudael mannamyeon bogo shipeotdeon nege malhaejulke

Oh baby say goodbye oh jamsiman goodbye
annyeongiran mareun jamsi jeobeodulke
Jeo muneul yeolgoseo han georeum naemilmyeon
kko kkeuteuro jeonhaejineun neoui sumgyeol

Keureohke ddo haega jigo dari ddeuneun oneul yeoksi byeonhami eobneunde
Oh, wae jakkuman nae mameun ireohke bbareuke dallajineunji
Paran haneul dalmeun geudaeui moseubeun eoneu saen-ga bireul naerigo
Ee bitsoke momi jeojeumyeon heureuneun nunmul ddawin kamchwodulge yeah~

Oh baby say goodbye oh jamsiman goodbye
annyeongiran mareun jamsi jeobeodulke
Jeo muneul yeolgoseo han georeum naemilmyeon
kko kkeuteuro jeonhaejineun neoui sumgyeol

Jinan sigan neomu eoriseokeotdeon nae meotdaeroyeotdeon geureon nae moseub modu kamssajwotdeon
nega neomu sojunghan geol

Oh baby say goodbye oh jamsiman goodbye
annyeongiran mareun jamsi jeobeodulke
Jeo muneul yeolgoseo han georeum naemilmyeon
kko kkeuteuro jeonhaejineun neoui sumgyeol

Oh baby say goodbye oh jamsiman goodbye
naega itdeon geu jariro dolagalge
Jeo muneul yeolgoseo han georeum naemileo
bogo shipdeon ne ape seol su itdorok

Neol saranghaetdeon ee nae mami,
neol barabwatdeon nae du nuni...
kidarilge

TRANSLATION

My heart that loved you
my eyes that looked at you
ARE STILL HERE.

Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while goodbye
The talk about goodbye, I'll put it aside for a short while
When I open that door and take one step
your breath that's conveyed to the tip of my nose

In the cold wind the feeling of your warm hand stays for a while
all your traces become tears and stay on my cheeks
After I go on for a trip for a short while and wipe of my heart wrenching wound
after time passed by when I meet you I will tell you that I missed you

Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while goodbye
The talk about goodbye, I'll put it aside for a short while
When I open that door and take one step
your breath that's conveyed to the tip of my nose

Today when the sun sets and the moon rises again, it's still the same
oh why is my heart changing this fast
Your appearance that resembled the blue sky rains
when my body gets wet from this rain I'll hide my running tears

Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while goodbye
The talk about goodbye, I'll put it aside for a short while
When I open that door and take one step
your breath that's conveyed to the tip of my nose

In the past when I did whatever I wanted and was foolish
you who embraces all of that are really precious

Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while goodbye
The talk about goodbye, I'll put it aside for a short while
When I open that door and take one step
your breath that's conveyed to the tip of my nose

Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while goodbye
I'll go back to the place when I once was
When I open that door and take one step
so that I can stand in front of you who i missed

My heart that loved you
my eyes that looked at you
I'll WAIT...

p/s: oh baby....my heart that loved you..my eyes that looked at you.....will split into two..when i know..u no longer mine.......huhuhuhu...wish u all the best.......stay longer with her....till married-after......

Saturday, July 10, 2010

pyjamas party!

salam.....love n really miss it!...it's been such a long-long days...im not being here..and have a good chits-chats with all of u guys...busy with some stuffs and so many stuffs...cant handle to release all the pressure here and shared with all my good readers..thanks for still supporting my story-morry and keep on reading and perhaps some commenting..hehehehe....

im just back from over night stayed at sungai besi, one of my frenz home..after stayed back for the entire night..marathon for twilight movies...all in one...twilight..new moon and last but not least eclipse!..cant waited for breaking down...as a last pieces of vampire based fantasy romance novel by stephenie meyer and series of twilight movies by the summit!..

thanks and really thanks to my good friend atrul, and her friend zai..and also liza..for such a great night and party...even we have to stay awake at time of 5am...from 10pm to 5am...such a new record of my marathon midnight movies...my last was 2 night-midnight movies...but last night..it was 3 movies at all!...an all of it....TWILIGHT SERIES.....

with a tickets for 3 marathon movies of twilight series..with a trick of pyjamas party @ cineleisure..really..i had a good times..time to relax and spend with my old good buddies...so thankful!im wore my black t-shirt with white cardigan (cardigan for sleep?...leerr...)..and my favorite seluar tido with is moo-moo....!
me and my moo-moo!

about the movies....actually im not a big fans of any vampire-movies or fantasy romances!cause i more to musical movies and theater and not into the romances and love-types movies..no jiwang-jiwanglah..even me, myself such a bit romantic person...hahahahaha..ye ker?

about twilight....emmm....it was simple in storyline but deeper in story-mode....means..the complex message is love..but the hiding agenda of love is life...how cruel and harmonies of our life is based on what we choose and what types of the choices and options that we have...what we believed and how we compromise about all the love-life things!..

falling in love with 2 guys in the same times..im feel neglected...shouldn't be!.."i love you...but..i love him more..."so bad for both guys..and that girl too..bella plz..be more reasonable and realistic..life is not a fantasy and love is not only a glimpse of feel...that and that..cewah!....marah pulak..

back to the story of edward,bella and jacobs and their fight for honour, survival and love...
hahahaha..like i said before..im not a big fans of vampire-romance and fantasy movie..so i doesn't care and not into this films and so on..but last night..i was frankly being a fan of twilight...i enjoyed it and love it..it might be no bias at all..just to fall into it..hahahahaha..

so after back...i had done some research about this novels and movies...surprising..how excited am i!..hahahahaha

Twilight

Bella Swan moves from Phoenix, Arizona to live with her father in Forks, Washington to allow her mother to travel with her new husband, a minor league baseball player. After moving to Forks, Bella finds herself involuntarily drawn to a mysterious, handsome boy, Edward Cullen. She eventually learns that he is a member of a vampire family who drinks animal blood rather than human. Edward and Bella fall in love, but James, a sadistic vampire from another vampire coven, is drawn to hunt down Bella. Edward and the other Cullens defend Bella. She escapes to Phoenix, Arizona, where she is tricked into confronting James, who tries to kill her. She is seriously wounded, but Edward rescues her and they return to Forks, having killed James.

(For the screen plays...i give 4/5..cos i just love how the movies play parts..simple and just nice..no so damn graphic, CGI..effects and so on..just simple and very 'purple'..n why purple?..it's sad and romance..hehehe..(my opinion of purple..~sadness~sorrow~empty~yet romance)

New Moon

Edward and his family leave Forks because he believes he is endangering Bella's life. Bella falls into a deep depression, until she develops a strong friendship with Jacob Black, who she discovers can shape shift into a wolf. Jacob and the other wolves in his tribe must protect her from Victoria, a vampire seeking to avenge the death of her mate James, by killing Bella. A misunderstanding occurs, and Edward believes Bella is dead. Edward decides to commit suicide in Volterra, Italy, but he is stopped by Bella, who is accompanied by Edward's sister, Alice. They meet with the Volturi, a powerful vampire coven, and are released only on the condition that Bella be turned into a vampire in the near future. Bella and Edward are reunited, and she and the Cullens return to Forks.

(For the screen plays: 3/5)....the ending was so so...huh!!!!...'will u marry me...'..da...end up just like that...but new moon was success to make me tears in depth!..giler....tangkap leleh....especially in the scene of "i need to see u..i want to see u.."then bella jump to the shore..with edward illusion and breath...ooo my!..)

Eclipse

The vampire Victoria (James' mate from Twilight) has created an army of "newborn" vampires to battle the Cullen family and murder Bella for revenge. Meanwhile, Bella is compelled to choose between her relationship with Edward and her friendship with Jacob. Edward's vampire family and Jacob's werewolf pack join forces to successfully destroy Victoria and her vampire army. In the end, Bella chooses Edward's love over Jacob's and agrees to marry him

(For the screen plays: 4/5)..even there are some parts irrelevant to be handle purposely...kissing parts and some effects...i guess..this series are more logics..when it all begin with a choice..then u need to be really ensure and be sure..confident and have justice nor prejudice!.but..love is blind and so subjective..u still in love with someone who's hurt and make urlife miserable..u cant love someone who really love you..even he's always be with you and always care...sometimes ur really cares but u cant shows it technically..but literally yes u care!..u love her more then u love yourself....u choose to be apart cos u care of her life rather then yourselves...u miss her like crazy till u fall and drop your pride away....but still do and love her..lol...why i need to explain it...hey, guys..go and watch it on cinema..no regrets..perhaps!)

for my Charming Edward Cullen....u r so fascinating and adorable... i love to see how's depth your love sparkle between your pair of vampire's eye..u love her and u really love her more then u love yourselves...u try very hardest to be more warmer and hotter just to release her from freezing and dying!...u love her more then entire vampire's clans and life...i know..u never ever slip her away out of life...your breath is her..in your heart..there is only her..

for Bella...please..dont ba so mean to edward...he love you...plz be more reasonable and stick into one only...

for jacob...i always waiting for u....hahahaha..im not into u...i rather and confidently choose Edward..i have right to choose right?...hahahaha..cos its only fantasy nor reality..n how come it will be true....hahahahaha